Can I be honest with you? I needed a break. And I got it (by and large) last week. No deadlines. No meetings. No hospitals. As much as I love what I do, (and I sincerely do)… I needed the break and so to the coast my family and I did goest! 🙂
Here are some pictures…
The sunsets were amazing!
Clara likes taking selfies:
I got a real charge out of this one… Gotta love the “duck-face” she got Charlotte to make with her…
It was truly a great week! Honestly, I think the build up to some time for R&R is almost as fun as actually resting. Is that crazy or what? You know it’s true. Planning a vacation and thinking about the fact that you don’t have to get up at the crack of dawn and you can eat (a bit naughty) is really kind of fun (in and of itself) to think about and experience. 🙂
Isn’t it true that we all go at such a break-neck pace that probably none of us rest enough. We almost feel guilty when we do. I know I do. My mind is in overdrive almost all the time. I guess it’s just my nature (at least that’s my excuse). But, it takes a lot for me to push the “stop” button of my life and just “be still.” You know being still can make us better and more productive people. God says, “Be still and know that I am God.” And that’s what I did last week. I was still.
I hope you didn’t miss me too much! 🙂 But, the family and I were ready to have some undivided attention together. I liked that “undivided” part. Pastoring, (as wonderful as it is), leaves your attention divided a lot. It doesn’t matter if it’s a weekend or your day off, it can always be changed in a moment, in an instant.
That being said, it makes me think of Pam. I thought about her a lot last week because I was actually with her! 🙂 She is such a trooper and deals with even more than I do juggling all that she does so that I can do what I do. If it weren’t for all that Pam does as a stay-at-home, homeschool mom…the church wouldn’t get nearly as much out of me as it does, I promise you that. Sometimes I don’t think she gets enough credit for all she does as a pastor’s wife. I get the “at-a-boys” after a message is preached…and I’m grateful for those…but, I wish I could defer those to Pam as some “at-a-girl…way to go Pam!”
Some might think, “Well you guys just need to grin and bear it Kevin…after all you are a pastor’s family and that’s just the life you live.” Well, that is most definitely true, but it doesn’t change the fact that everyone likes a pat on the back occasionally and a “job well done” from time to time. Friday night last week, for instance, she did most of the packing up while I began working on a funeral sermon (because of a sudden death in the church). I delivered that sermon yesterday. Yes, it had to be done and as usual, she made it happen.
Yep, my lovely bride is a trooper and lest you are thinking she put me up to saying these things…you would be dead wrong. That’s not her style and those of you who know her know it. She’s one of the most unassuming and kindly, humble people you will ever meet and because of that fact…she’s often taken for granted by ME and many others. And so I’m publicly saying: “Pam Brown you are the bomb and I love you and I’m so proud of you that I can’t see straight! And thanks for all you do honey! Without you, I’m half of what I am (at best)!”
And while I’m at it…may I give a shout out to my kids. Pastors kids are placed under a microscope like no-one else’s kids, period. The expectations of pastor’s kids…well, let’s just say the expectations are almost unattainable. People expect things from pastor’s kids that they don’t expect from their own children in most cases. As harsh as it sounds, I’m really convinced that some people wish my kids would fail so that they could feel better about their kids. Ouch! I don’t mean that in a mean-spirited way… I promise. It’s just the way it seems and feels at times. I’ve been doing this for almost 11 years and unless you have lived it…you don’t understand it.
Now please, please don’t get me wrong. Pastor’s kids are to be submissive and under control (so says 1 Timothy 3), but many PK’s are expected to walk on water and that’s just not possible. They are human beings too! And yes, they need a break from time to time where they get 100% of their daddy and dad can just be Dad. They need me NOT to be in “work mode” as they call it. (Often times they’ll say to me…even at home… “Come on dad…get out of work mode…it’s us!”) It’s hard sometimes, I must admit, but Kandace, Clara, Andrew, (and still Katy, and now grand baby Charlotte and soon to make her appearance: Evelyn Ruth) are understanding and I’m grateful! And yes…I had a wonderful time with all my children and grandchildren last week…without a phone stuck to my ear and a computer on my lap! Woohoo! We had a blast! And thank you, thank you, thank you for being wonderful children who love the Lord and serve Him out of your own heart of love. You’re the best!
Might I say that I believe for folks who live an “on-call” 24/7 lifestyle, there must be times to totally unplug or you’ll burn out. You can’t run a race horse every single race and not eventually kill it. It’s got to have some “pasture time.” So, this pastor did just that…I cooled my jets and had some “pasture time” at the coast with the most. It was such a blessing to get away for a few days. And now, (as always after a break), I’m recharged and ready and raring to go and I’m back in the saddle again! Praise the Lord for His goodness and mercy and for the time to enjoy His creation at the coast and to have been with my family for a wonderful week!